I'm addicted to u....

My addiction…

Okay yesterday, Saturday, November 29, 2008, on a episode of Run’s House, Run's House: Episode Season 5 Ep. 10 Say Hello To My Little Friend,Vanessa and Angela came to the realization that they have a serious shopping addiction. The girls reexamine their shopping problem and how their move to Los Angeles has affected the issue. Vanessa and Angela seek advice from a therapist about their shopping addiction.

Picture from Run's House: Episodic Flipbook Season 5 Ep. 10 Say Hello To My Little Friend…



After Vanessa gave her trouble for having a shopping problem, Angela goes through Vanessa's closet and realizes they both have a shopping problem and should see a therapist.

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BASICALLY...

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“Back in LA, Vanessa is looking for the wrapping paper and almost gets crushed by the avalanche of boxes and purses that fall out of the closet when she opens it. Apparently Angela ran out of room in her closet and took over the luggage closet. Vanessa thinks Angela may have a shopping problem and suggests that she find another hobby.

When Angela goes through Vanessa's closet to find an outfit to borrow, she realizes that Vanessa may have a shopping problem too. Besides having tons of clothes that still have the tags on them, Vanessa admits to going to a store earlier that week to buy a tank top and coming out with three bags of clothes. The girls agree that they both have issues with shopping and could probably use some help.

The girls go back to their therapist and come clean about buying one outfit instead of one item. Vanessa admits that even in the store, she felt bad knowing she'd have to tell the therapist about their slip-up. When the therapist asks if Vanessa has ever felt like someone else was watching over her shoulder in this way, Angela and Vanessa realize that they might be shopping so much because for the first time in their lives, their dad isn't around to tell them not to. The therapist thinks being homesick might be at the root of the girls' shopping problems and suggests that they call their family to talk about what's going on.”

“Does your family complete you? Mine does. Life affords no greater privilege than living amongst the ones you love. Remember, a house is made of walls and ceilings, but a home is made of loving feelings. It's good to be home! God is love.”

-Rev Run

My addiction.. ugh!!
I kind of feel as if I’m addicted to shopping, I go to the mall almost three times a week and when I miss going to the mall I make up for it in purchases that I buy when I do. I buy unnecessary things, but very cute things. I have the same cardigan in like 5 different colors form H&M, the same skinny’s just in didn’t styles and colors and this is my second juicy couture bracelet. I don’t know what it is; when I get stressed out I shop, when I’m bored I shop, and when I’m lonely I shop. I never felt so in love with the mall until now, I wasn’t a big fan of shopping and matter of fact I kind of hated walking around the big ass mall with sooo many people, with soo many stairs and stores and just to leave with one thing. HATED IT! In the episode Vanessa said that she’s going to do more and take more classes and all that jazz so she doesn’t think about shopping as much, but I’m already in so much. Firstly I’m in school, I have extra-curricular activities and I have homework, how much busier do I really need to be in order for me not to shop. It was a kind of blessing that I didn’t have a car this weekend and that I was unwillingly trapped in the house with nothing to do except watch movies on HBO, dwell about my past experiences, ummm…. Blog, facebook'n it and watch youtube and do a lil research for some group projects of mine; I wasn’t able to go out on black Friday and spend money like I wanted to. Even when I go to the grocery store, I buy things that I don’t need; I go to the store for one thing and end up with 3 bags. In the episode Angela and Vanessa realized that they might be shopping so much because for the first time in their lives, their dad isn't around to tell them not to, well for the for the first time in my life my mom isn’t here to tell me not to. She isn’t here to take all my money and hold it aside for me. I admit it now that sometimes being stressed out is a good excuse for me to go shopping but I can’t help it. When I was younger I couldn’t afford any of the things I can get my hands on now, I'm still a little cheap, but cheap sums up to more, you know. What have I really gotten myself into? Honestly???


So I, Lauren Renee, vow today, Sunday, November 30, 2008 at 4:30pm to slow down on shopping, to try my best to save up my receipts from my purchases, to buy what's needed and not wanted, and I strongly solemnly swear to use my money wisely, right after I buy these Christmas presents, lmao... But I honestly want to make important moves that will make my future better and not destroy my future. And I ask that you all do the same as I, so that we can save just a little for the right reasons; our future. okay with that note I'm about to go order me some uggs and a Zune. lol. after that purchase I'm done. Promise, PINKY SWEAR!

Beyonce's Halo...

I so do ♥ this SONG!

Yes Beyonce Get it!!

The bridge to Beyonce's HALO:

"It’s like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breaking
It’s the risk that I’m taking
I ain't never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace
You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away"

What is really Halo though?
HA⋅LO - /ˈheɪloʊ/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [hey-loh] Show IPA Pronunciation noun, plural -los, -loes, verb, -loed, -lo⋅ing.
–noun

an atmosphere or quality of glory, majesty, sanctity, or the like: the halo around Shakespeare's works; She put a halo around her son.

to surround with a halo.–verb (used without object)

to form a halo.
Origin: 1555–65; <>

I swear I honeslty listen to this song faithfully, just as much as I listen to the CD. And I'm feeling this song. Beyonce's new CD, I Am… Sasha Fierce (2008) , just all in general just a really good CD. it pretains to so much of my life, the happy, sad, exciting, loveable, funny, etc. moments o my life and i love it! her previous CD, B'Day (2006) , was HAWT as well but i just think that can't compare to the damage she's done with creating this 2008 I Am... Sasha Fierce Album. AMAZING!

Undeserving Love♥

“Undeserving Love” is DEAD!

I used to be able to tell you everything,
but that was back then when you were my everything and when you wanted to give me everything.
Now we talk about a lil bit of nothing,
Stay saying that I'm the one fronting,
just because you might want just a lil loving.
But what is that really going to do for me,
Except for complicate my life and please your needs.
Now you're gone in the same presences as that you came.
I'm now realizing that all this is just a big game.
So I say "o well", "o well" to it all.
Because I know myself and if I stay around I'll fall.
And truth be told when I fall, I fall,
Hard as ever too.
I know that I no longer can deal with you.
But that's how life goes, you lose some, you win some and you gain some.
You gain some sense, that is.
To know that you and I aren't to be friends.
I remember that a smile from you made my world worth while.
Well that was a while ago,
when "Undeserving Love" was the topic of my life.
Now I might just have me a life, well sort of that is.
Just making it, that is.
Can't complain too much, because it is what it is.
Changing your mind about me?
I'm done with it all; you no longer can impress me.
My brain has finally decided which roads not to allow me to retake.
Can't deal with it no more, so my heart I'm not allowing you to take.
So behind this smile I now decide to not hide.
I now no longer decide to live behind lies.
So you think you love me?
But this isn't about what you think, it's about me.
And well I think its time to let things just BE.
But I'm not trying to diss you;
I'm only trying to LEFT you... out of my life!
"To the LEFT, to the LEFT!" just like Beyonce said,
I'm still learning that this "Undeserving Love" issue is dead.
Na, I don't need any tissues for issues,
Cause I'm through and I would just like to wish you, the best.
I know half the things you tell me are true so without no further a due,
I would like kindly say thank you, thank you.
Rough times, hard times and the stuff in the middle,
I have nothing to say about that...
Don't be riddled?
Like riddle me this, riddle me that,
No matter what I still will always have your back.
But it would be so much better if you weren't friends with thee.
Leave and don't even worry about saying goodbye to me.
Now that I've built a bridge to get over my fears,
I can use "the force" to finally walk through my future without any tears.
Some may ask me to who was this about; with no hesitation I'll say nobody without a doubt.
But this poem is about the same person I've always written about.

I ponder...™ wtf were you thinking???

I wonder how it feels to know that you are the one that messed up so much for others and then to continue to smile in our faces day to day as if you weren’t to blame. But how could I possibly sit and allow you to mess it up for me and others when I knew and I had a understanding as to what was happening. Maybe I’m just a little to emotional or maybe I’m not… Maybe I should have tried to stop it, but that I did try.... Maybe I'm going too far with this and maybe I'm just dwelling on the past.

Anywho, I just received a text message form my darling friend Walida, it read:"What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight anyway, if you are honest and sincere people may deceive you be honest and sincere anyway." After I read it over and over I decided to look it up on google, google has everything, and I did my research.

1. The version found written on the wall in Mother Teresa's home for children in Calcutta:

People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies. Succeed anyway. If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyway. What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous. Be happy anyway. The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway. Give the best you have, and it will never be enough. Give your best anyway. In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.

-this version is credited to Mother Teresa ____________________________

2. The Original Version: The Paradoxical Commandments by Dr. Kent M. Keith
People are illogical, unreasonable, and self-centered.
Love them anyway.If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives.
Do good anyway.
If you are successful, you win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway.
The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable.
Be honest and frank anyway.
The biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds.
Think big anyway.
People favor underdogs but follow only top dogs.
Fight for a few underdogs anyway.What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway.People really need help but may attack you if you do help them.
Help people anyway.
Give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth.
Give the world the best you have anyway.

© 1968, 2001 Kent M. Keith "The Paradoxical Commandments" were written by Kent M. Keith in 1968 as part of a booklet for student leaders.

I don't really understand whats been going on, with all the drama. I feel like my life ha been put on hold because of this one situation. as I watch the happiness of everyone around me, I'm happy but yet I"m really crying inside. Trying find some type of relief, some how... but then i realize this, this is reality and it only ets realer from here...

i'll just ponder... for NOW!